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It’s been a while since you left. You and I both have the reasons to decide for what is right. But it seems things are getting more complicated on my part. I’m really trying it hard to cover up the feelings. I’m so tired to hide the pain. I don’t know how to escape from this position where all i can do is to bear the hurting inside. I know smile can hide the pain but it’s trully painful to face the reality that you and me are not meant to be together. My mind easily coped up but my heart always negates what the mindsets. there are times I wanted to cry but my eyes are already drained. I really dont know how to start my days without you beside me. I feel like a big part of me is gone since you left. I feel like bliss is too far away from my grasp.

       That was a hardest decision- to let go of my feelings and chooses friendship to ruin our connection. we’ve made the right decision i know. But i still do not  know how ans till when i can carry the sting it caused. i left a wound in our hearts but i know, someday and hopefully, will heal. i know everything happens for a reason. You came into my life and gave me more reasons to be happy. You made me believe that life was just for you and me. I let myself ruined by your words and promises. You didn’t give give me an assurance but unintentionally, your words and gestures also gave me reason to hope. yes, i hoped that time will come that we will end up bein together. but i was wrong; now, i realized that hoping at once is not a good feeling to pursue ‘coz it will hurt you in the end.i just learned now that love can melt away the pain how painful it is but pain can also melt the love how great it was. now, i will still smile,. i will try to make myself believe that what we had was just a great scene to cherish. what we had was enough for me to learn to appreciate love. thank you for making me stronger as what i am now. I learned that love is never about playing it safe, it’s about risks. At this moment, i know i have to learn to accept that some things are just not meant to be.. just like us. Now, you caould still see me smile but say goodbye…